Being southern I was raised on grits. I must confess, I don't like grits and thankfully my parents never forced me to eat them! I call that grace...especially in the south! Grits for me are the hard times, the times we have to wrestle with our thoughts, our situations, etc. Grace allows me to take these "Grits" to God and work through them with Him.
In the south I have many fond memories. These memories allow us to remember the good and the bad and this past week has brought some very hard memories to mind. Our dear friends lost their daughter to suicide. Losing anyone is hard but to loose a child is the hardest death I know to be true. We lost our youngest son 20 months ago to medical issues. No matter the cause, their deaths are deeply painful, a pain that you cannot describe and pray that most never will experience.
Our friends are in the throws of indescribable pain and in their quest to understand, they no doubt will question "why, what if," and wonder "if only I had". Grace has allowed me to accept that I will never understand my son's passing as such a young age, and has given me the peace and comfort of knowing I will see him again. I can now smile at many of his memories that I hold so dear to my heart but I still tear up when I see my grandson and know that he will never experience all the dreams his dad had for the two of them.
Death was never a part of God's plan. When He created our world, He created it for us to live with Him in paradise. But as we know, we failed miserably and His plan was forever changed. Many want to blame God for losses but I cannot blame Him for something He never intended. I can, however, celebrate the time that I had with our son and share with others how God can heal the deepest pain one will ever know.
I often work through my emotions in my artwork. I recently created a line of greeting cards I call "For God". These cards are meant to encourage and give hope and understanding to those who are walking through dark times and help me celebrate the gifts our son used for others. These cards have allowed me to work through the pain and hard memories during the times I struggled and I hope that they will do the same for others.
Please enjoy a sampling of the cards!