God's timing is perfect and His grace is indescribable. I have known this for some time but this past year has solidified it even more. For the past year and a half I have felt God prompting me to write and create a prayer journal. Being an artist, I do much better when I can sit, write and sketch my feelings and prayers to Him and I have seen His power in my life as I have explored this method further. When I realized that the prompting to create this was growing stronger I decided I should heed this prompting and begin the process. I had no idea where this journey would take me or how God intended to use this in my life, but two things I do know, one - when God lays a deep desire on your heart, you need to listen and two, you need to obey.
I cleared my schedule for the beginning of 2020 so I could focus on just this project. Little did I know that God was going to clear it even further with the onset of COVID. When I realized that I was going to have all this time to just create I have to admit I was more than a bit excited (artists can be weird that way - we love our alone time!). So, I began writing and determining how this entire project would play out.
In early March I was diagnosed with uterine cancer. This revelation came completely out of nowhere as I had no warning of this condition. Faced with more decisions to make and knowing that for the next 6 months I would be dealing with all the minutiae of this diagnosis and the emotions that play into the situation etc. I knew I had a choice to make. I could wallow in the moment or I could put on my big girl panties and face it head on! So that's what I did! I realized that God had given me more that just the gift of time. He had given me an amazing opportunity of dependence completely on Him. Instead of focusing on my health and my situation, I poured my energy, time and heart into writing and creating this journal. Let me be perfectly clear - I'm not saying I wasn't worried or thrown for a loop with what I was about to face, but I did have a calm that I cannot explain and a peace that only He could give.
This journal is 15 weeks (164 pages) of God's goodness to me. It is filled with inspiration pages, verses to ponder, scriptures to memorize, pages for you to journal your feelings and your prayers and yes, a coloring page because I find coloring and painting one of the most relaxing ways to talk with God. I am in no way a writer - but I have written and created this journal from my heart and as every artist knows, our best work comes from deep within our soul.
This journey has given me opportunities to understand God in ways I have not known before. It has most certainly deepened my walk and my dependence on Him and I so want to share all of this with you. My desire now is for you to know what I have discovered even more deeply - God's timing is perfect and His grace is indescribable!